As the title says -365days, short for some folks while it can also be long for others. For me it has been an interesting year of compromises, surprises, normalisations and contentment. This year it's like learning how to be an working adult again, I no longer hold that much power over others neither do I have the freedom to roam the streets or be able to push my sales for a big pay check.
Life has very much settle down either be it that most of my medical debts being paid off and adjusting the household and personal spending to reflect my current pay package. It was hard to give up some stuff especially when it comes to my car and F&B but something has to gives. Worst is I now no longer holds any part-time jobs, scary for me cause I have nevertthought I can survive without one but I did afterall.
This is also a year of discipline for me. Watching my spending closely saving for any sudden medical outburst and also my kiddo's P1 education and of course my inability to do whatever I want at work. I'm a rookie at work, at times I just sit around and listen, yes listening - something which I have perhaps neglected for the past decade. listening to my inner voice, my conscience and at times spiritually too. Spiritually I'm struggling to find my true faith that gave me inner peace and in times of my medical stress and pains.
Some folks see me as my luck is changing cause I got a stable job now, lesser medical appt and change car twice from a small to a big one. But little did they know that no job is stable nowadays, I'm fighting daily to day well and the Camry actually post less to own than the Slyphy. I do hope my luck has changed for the better but even if it didn't then so what cause life still goes on.
At this point, many of you may find that why it's all gloomy stuff. Actually to me they ain't that bad anymore cause they are important lessons and markers of my life. I still love what I go through everyday be it my job or my family life cause I now truly make time for my love ones and impacted others too. I enjoy being an MC at events at my centres cause the reactions and responses from the beneficiaries are so real be it their smiles and laughters. A thought of having my own centre or social enterprise did cross my mind and I'm planning to put that in my next year's resolution.
Well one more month to go before 2013 arrives, I can only hope that I'm ready and hopefully my kiddo too with his new school. As like my last two year's birthday wishes -please be over with. Thanks and all the best to all for 2013 in advance. Cheers!
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